I believe some of the dust is settling in my life. Things are still feeling quite confusing and frustrating but I believe that I have come to some sort of acceptance with it (at least for the moment). Everything has felt so dramatic, sad and depressing for the past two months that I was having a hard time functioning in any capacity at all. I think that I finally reached the glorious bottom somehow and now it is time to abscond myself from the muck. So many aspects of my life have shriveled because I have been so steeped in sad emotions which now feels like a normal state of being for me. I am tired of feeling that way and now am just trying to accept the losses of friendship/closeness etc. and move on.
In fact I feel rather inspired. I am trying to understand how I can operate from a less emotionally-reactive perspective without feeling numb. I feel interested in movement again, curiosity about writing and have the desire to create things once again! Huzzah for resielience. My spirit may feel broken but that doesn’t mean that I can’t do cool things in such a state. Ha ha stick it to the proverbial man!