This is the kind of thing that makes the guilt and regret crop up…the time of year when perhaps it is appropriate to examine all motives, past actions, intentions and outcomes. So then the issue here is weather or not to do anything about the items of contemplation. Perhaps these items have come to be contemplated because you are bored, or lonely, or out of your element. It could be something like that, or it could be an actual crises.
I am really tired of having a mind that is rich with verbosity and thought at most moments and then when there is space on which to write, it all becomes insipid hoo-ha. That is quite the conundrum.
Now maybe I should just list the items of so-called “contemplation” (all of this could perhaps be amusing)
1. What, after the fact, is necessary to reveal to someone?
2. If you feel that you have regrets, should you reveal that fact to said person?
3. What are your motivations/;goals/methods etc?
4. IS it worthwhile to tell someone what you are thinking, or should it be swept under the proverbial rug?
5. How much should patience should one have with something that seems, at alternating times, to make no sense and then perfect sense. The dichotomy is vertigo-inducing to the max I tell you.
6. How is it to become a hermit; someone completely and utterly inoculated against all outsiders?
7. How will I make the undying and heart-breaking beauty that I imagine?
8. How can companionship be gentle and buoyant without inhaling one’s pur[pose and poignancy?